verymuch.

Mon, 27 Jun 2005 19:47:32 GMT

i've been back for a while.

work and workingchairboys
have been occupying my life
and i love it.

goodbye.

Tue, 31 May 2005 16:30:40 GMT

I'm off to airport.
I'll be calling some of you.
Cross your finger that I don't die in a plancrash on the way there and miss all the scenery and accents.

...'Til two weeks.
<3

Love you all so so so much.

Leave me comments about how much you are going to miss me while I'm in Ireland and Scotland!

Wed, 25 May 2005 12:03:34 GMT

okay,
so,

jordan crain, one of my dearest and truest friends from my past life, called me tonight. completely random, completely wonderful. i didn't realize how much i've missed him until i found this card he made me back when he moved out of desoto. and then it hit me again tonight when i heard his voice. as i told him tonight, he is so beautifully honest. i love him for that. he's very caring and accepting. two other amazing qualities that are rare in folks these days.

we talked about everything from relationships to religion to screwing up (and how they all are pretty much connected). i made things awkward a few times but i didn't mean to and i think (i hope) he knows that.

today i have had two good&honest conversations with two wonderful people that i love more than i could communicate to you. i think those are imporant things to have, good&honest conversations i mean. communication can be the last straw on a bad day or the thing that wraps up a pretty normal day with a great ending. thank you kristen and jordan.

i love the people in my life.

i love that tomorrow is the last day of exams, thus beginning summer.

i love that there are still genuinely nice people in the world and the reminders they send to me via (unexpected but muchappreciated) phonecalls.

i love that saturday is going to be amazing and the perfect note to leave this country on.

i love.

[it's true that things could always be better than they are. but right now i feel closer to contentment than i have felt in a while.summer hype?somewhat. but i think more so i am allowing myself to feel okay.]

Mon, 09 May 2005 17:21:15 GMT

boys.

boys.

~~boy~~.

Sun, 08 May 2005 13:21:28 GMT

I went to DeSoto Prom last night as Eric's date.

Zach, Myself, and Eric

Here's a picture from when I was getting ready and being stupid. I made it into a campaign poster. (:

I love making Eric feel like he is the most wonderful boy around.

It's early. I'm a tadbit hungover. I need to jump a shower and give my mom the best Mother's Day I can.

Fri, 22 Apr 2005 17:29:57 GMT

I am really panicky right now for two reasons:

First Reason- I have my Colt Chorale Audition next period! I'm so nervous! Also, show choir dance after school!

Second Reason- At lunch, Jacob and Parker told me to give BCISboy a flyer for Temporary Utopia and I DID! He's sitting right next to me ahhhh.

TODAY IS INTENSE.

cried when she should and she laughed when she could.

Tue, 12 Apr 2005 16:17:54 GMT

loving is fine if you have plenty of time
for walking on stilts at the edge of your mind.

(i need a hug
and to pull myself together.)

Tue, 29 Mar 2005 18:11:15 GMT

so as it turns out, bcisboy is an artist!
& he has a girlfriend named ginna.

shoot.

Wed, 02 Mar 2005 17:19:37 GMT

there is only one boy who i like to play mash with & that boy is...

LAW TOWN:

Wed, 16 Feb 2005 04:36:54 GMT

so i managed to have this almost perfected state of apathy all day during school...
but therapy and a shift @ work later- the system kind of broke down.MESS!

fuuuuuck.
my eyes hurt like hell.
ohyeah, heart too.

wahwah,poor me. CRYCRYshutup!.
i'm annoying myself, anybody else?

***EDITEDIT:***
I HAD TO SAY THIS BECAUSE I JUST SAW THE PREVIEW
AND IT MANAGED TO CHEER ME UP A LITTLE.

NEW EPISODE OF DEGRASSI THIS FRIDAY!

LAWTON.

Tue, 15 Feb 2005 00:49:53 GMT

I would like to talk about my friend Lawton.

taken by: lawton's little sister, carrie.

That is him.

He makes me amazing things. & He makes me smile.
He is a very sweet boy.

I am listening to the mean mixtape he made me, right now.
I would put the tracklisting... but it's for me, not you.

EDITEDIT-
He said I could put it here. So I will.
": i don't mind you posting it. some people make mixtapes very personal, like undergarments, but mine are just for inspiration."

SIDE A
1. kaki king - magazine (the wicked acoustic one!)
2. john lennon - watching the wheels (acoustic)
3. elliott smith - memory lane
4. joanna newsom - the book of right on (live)
5. badly drawn boy - year of the rat (live acoustic)
5. wilco - not for the season (unreleased live)
6. iron and wine - southern anthem
8. rilo kiley - better son/daughter (live acoustic)
9. cocorosie - terrible angels
10. bob dylan - it's all over now, baby blue (live)
11. jeff buckley - hallelujah
12. lawton at age 8 - i hated your freaking song
SIDE B
1. m. ward - duet for guitars #3
2. trail of dead - will you smile for me?
3. arcade fire - wake up
4. low - venus
5. postal service - be still my heart (unreleased)
6. bright eyes - black comedy
7. neva dinova - tripped
8. the mendoza line - will you be here tomorrow? (dani i love this song.)
9. drive-by truckers - putting people on the moon
10. bob dylan - dink's song
11. faultline - your love means everything
12. lawton at age 8 - hope you enjoyed the tape.

I did, Lawton. & I enjoy you.

Sun, 13 Feb 2005 00:09:55 GMT

DO NOT TELL ME YOU ARE DOING SOMETHING OR GOING TO BE SOMEWHERE AND THEN NOT SHOW UP.

Fri, 21 Jan 2005 18:20:47 GMT

interp was really cute today because jo,kristen,&i reminesced about that fateful night. fateful? i mean that in the best way possible. i like that we can laugh at&with eachother now.

also, i can breathe sort of today. so, that's nice. the o.c. last night was madcrazy. anybody else hopeful for some marissa-alex lesbianaction? because, i sure am.

i told the monster[risinger] that i would not be attending the tournament this weekend. she was suprisingly cool with it...

i'm listening to the cd lawton made me for my birthday that i love so much. i love that boy, he's a sweetheart & a real gent.

i hope this weekend isn't too lame. i have zero plans. &no matter what i do it cannot compare to last weekend so it all feels bittersweet that i'm skipping out on the tournament. i don't know. anyone up for some hanging out this weekend, hit me up. i really hate it when people say that.gross.

so i went to see CATS at bass hall the other night with jess&gabby. those girls make me smile. gabby is glamorous. icantwaitforthepicturesss.

i also love how excited jess gets during choir. the music makes her face light up and she can hardly sing through her smiles. i always knew there was something in particular that captivated me about jess and i think i've finally placed my finger on it: her childlike awe for beauty.[in any&every form.] whether it's a beautiful painting,photograph,song,voice, or smile. it's adoration. a genuine appreciation. like she falls in love with everything around her.

i miss annie. i hope we see eachother soon,bestfriend. &give gabby her clothes back! <3.

also, my camera is messed up and it's upsetting.

so okay, there is this boy sitting next to me right now in bcis. he's new, it's obvious. his first day here probably. i really want to invite him to lunch or something because i remember how horrible lunch was when i was a new kid. i won't give you the gorey details but it included me hiding in the bathroom on the phone with my mom, usually in tears. being new sucks a lot. so i think i will get over myself and talk to him. because i know he wants me to. not just me, but anybody. &boy have i been there,buddy. so now i will open my mouth and say hello or something. i mean seriously, wwjd?

i made an actual update. they are a rarity.

Fri, 21 Jan 2005 03:22:54 GMT

I WANT TO BREATHE AGAIN.

also, i'm having the scariest dreams ever lately. i really hate them.

Tue, 18 Jan 2005 23:33:37 GMT

i went from karaoke, u2, & tuddling to asthma, stress, & sopranos.

i want the tuddling back,[sigh]

at least i have the sopranos.

Fri, 14 Jan 2005 18:22:45 GMT

Everyone in my BCIS class must think I'm insane or something.
I always cry in here. It's pretty ridiculous.
ASDjklhli don't know.

[thankyou jo for letting me borrow your headphones.]

Fri, 31 Dec 2004 03:33:23 GMT

Come up to meet you, tell you I'm sorry
You don't know how lovely you are

I had to find you
Tell you I need you
Tell you I set you apart

Tell me your secrets
And ask me your questions
Oh let's go back to the start

Running in circles
Coming up tails
Heads on a silence apart

Nobody said it was easy
Oh it's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be this hard

Oh take me back to the start

I was just guessing
At numbers and figures
Pulling your puzzles apart

Questions of science
Science and progress
Do not speak as loud as my heart

Tell me you love me
Come back and haunt me
Oh and I rush to the start

Running in circles
Chasing our tails
Coming back as we are

Nobody said it was easy
Oh it's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be so hard

I'm going back to the start

Mon, 27 Dec 2004 23:33:23 GMT

but love is not a victory march
it's a cold and it's a broken hallelujah

Tue, 07 Dec 2004 13:10:17 GMT

I AM OUT OF CONTROL, just so you know.

omg tex: fingerscrossedforloving.

I watched Risky Business last night. Sometimes that's all a girl can do.

Oh,&also my birthday is next tuesday.

Wed, 10 Nov 2004 17:34:42 GMT

I am at school and veryvery sick.
But I am not going to go home because I am a trooper.
I also have a boy who brings me peppermint ice cream.
That is all.

Tue, 02 Nov 2004 17:36:08 GMT

I WOKE UP THIS MORNING AND JUMPED OUT OF BED "IT'S ELECTION DAY!"
i'm nervous.

[i'm going to copy jo]

Dear John Kerry,
Please win.
Love, Danielle

pee.ess. I said "please" because i'm working on my manners lately.

You've seen where I stand.
Has everyone (that can) voted?

&Even if you can't I'm interested to see:
Who did ( or would if you're young like me ) you vote for?

I'm really glad that people seem to be getting out and voting more this year. I mean, people fought for those rights. Apathy damages this nations more than dirty politics.

I CANT WAIT TIL LUNCH.

[ohoh, i talked to amanda yesterday and i am very happy to hear that she is doing wonderfully. now i want to hear from stacey.]

oh billy!

Fri, 15 Oct 2004 21:23:06 GMT

gosh.

i miss you guys so much it makes me scream.

Mon, 06 Sep 2004 18:18:10 GMT

asdfjkl;
homerow.

;/.

Mon, 02 Aug 2004 23:47:37 GMT

Back from Florida.
I'd post some pictures but I barely took any.
I was happy to be home.

Today is really lame. I'm going to see The village tonight. I'm really excited about that.

Okay, it's really lame thinking of things to write and sidestepping what i really want to put in here.

Let's just say I'm not always to blame.

Mon, 19 Jul 2004 05:20:40 GMT

this week & weekend in one word-

AMAZING

i'm so happy i'm gonna puke.